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My love for him is unconditional..even if it is i will still forgive him but i will never let him know. Right now thats the best i can do for him. I just wan him to hate me. I know that girl needs him very much because of her sister medical problem thats y she admits to the hospital. Though because of him i got no much appetite for food that is why i've been losing weight recently. I understand him more than myself. I know what he has been through all these while.

There are reasons i scolded him for wanting to buy so much gifts for me always. I don't need flowers from him even though i wanted so much. I would rather want him to save it and spend something that is rational and to cover is daily expenses. Even if he doesnt want it i would advise him to sell it away. What i really need from him is to love me wholeheartedly just a simple gesture i will be happy. Seeing him happy im just so contented. Maybe that's e question that's been bothering him that time.

Though he said something hurtful to me but i know he don't meant it. Setting me free is the best to keep me happy and i told him that before. Im sure he wants me to be happy. There is something in his heart that always i will know without him explaining to me and i know it. I understand him more than anyone else. Im not saying im the only one that knows him best but i just know him like all his close ones.

I admit that i have made mistakes but everybody makes mistakes. What the most important is that u learnt it and maybe u could be better in ur next relationship. I've made lots of sacrifices, my conscience is clear. If i really want him to be happy and to have the best, i make sure i will not leave any trace for him to know about my intention. Even if he does misunderstand me i don't mind though i really wanted him to know about it but i tried to suppress my feelings.

Is hard for me to do this, i tried several times to break with him but i just can't help to suppress my feelings so always ended up saying sorry and patch back. Whenever he cried it really pains me.

But if i were to be persistent like her it will be neverending. I know i can go on and on being persistent because what he does i really don't mind and i really love him unconditionally and is the fact that we really do love each other not until i decided for myself to let him hate me.

I know he really wants to get married soon, even if he doesnt say it. With his situation trapping in the middle is really hard for him to decide. If that time i really want them to be unhappy i can do all i want in my profile which i nv intended to and all along for 2 yrs till now i have been keep it as private. I've been putting myself in others shoes for the girl so often that i ended up hurting myself. Is not always that he's the one hurting me. Is me who doesnt want to do something against my conscience. He told me time and again but im just so stubborn and often letting it affecting me, i dun wan to do things that are against my conscience.

I wish him all the best and to be happy always. Love him truely.

After putting through so much of her accusation im jus so tired.